F U C K your L O V E

i don't love you but i just donno whether i still love you or not.....

in this short time you put the color in my love life. black, red, pink grey and so on....
i want to try to like you but you always make me disappointing and confused. i just can answer i donno and don't understand with this relationship..... 
i am your toys or i am your lovely girl.
everyday say i love you, i miss you... is that true or just a WORD from your mouth.
i am scare, afraid to take this risk. 
i want to serious with you but i don't see effort from you.... 
i hate this kind of love. your love is really SUCK 

you never show to me your effort.....
you never share everything with me......
you never ask and wanted to know how is my life is going on.....
i never hear you speak "we" "our relationship"
you never start 1st.....
i don't understand you LOVE.....
i know you don't truly like me....
i know you just playing with me 
you keep lying to me 


what i know is...
if a boy like and love his girl so much....
he will never force ask this girl to do everything for him 
he will never make this girl angry 
he will afraid his lovely girl leave him...
he will tell and share everything with his girl  
he always give but never ask for feedback 
he will try to learn and understand his girl with asking.....
he will like to talk about the personal life with the girl 
he will talk " we"  "us"
he will find his girl everyday 
he will make the girl is the 1st one and important for him
he will listen carefully every word the girl speak it out.
he will not make his girl worry, scared
he will always like to see his girl happy and smile every time when they meet
he will respect his girl, he will say " may i " asking permit 1st 

i don't need every day you say i love you i miss you and so on......
i just need your effort, i don't need you word......
please be sincerely to me..... so that i can respect and love you as you love me too....
if you treat me like your toy then you won't get anything from me, you will lost me forever.....